Friday, July 27, 2012

Newness



I'm trying to find a word for our new life aboard the one boat we have loved at first sight.

 Exciting is too vague and rosy, complete is too finished, dream come true suggests more of the happily ever after scenario that is unrealistic really. Every feeling and its accompanied word feels like Cinderella's shoe- too small!  And then I got it, - integration. Yes that is where we are at. We are at the step of bringing together all the dreams, plans, tears, and laughs, into a fullness that could only be called whole.

This process, of integration, for it feels like a process, has taken us from the heights of celebration and the colors of joy, love and freedom, to the lows of fear and insecurity. Since the momentous sale of Tara , we have explored the landscape of our inner and outer selves, questioning our motivations and ambitions. What do we really want to do now?

A lot of people have all kinds of suggestions and advice for us. A lot of you think we should go cruising, while others believe we should buy a house while the prices are low. Both of those sound reasonable and if we were considering things from the point of view of reasonableness we might be swayed in those directions. We, however, are considering things from the scenic view of the  mountaintop of  our heart, where the rising sun leads us towards higher and often less "reasonable" ambitions. Same as it ever was, with the difference measured only in paper.
 
 Whatever we do will not be done out of fear or insecurity of the future. Wherever we go we will not be seeking self gratification but working for the gratification of LIFE!

Someone once told us "First figure out what you want, then figure out how to get it"
We have followed those words, and added some of our own... " figure out what you DON'T want and avoid it."

10 comments:

Allan S said...

Ahhh, the traditional "buy a house" comment. Fodder for the staid and stale. We, (the wife and I), have the urge to see this big, beautiful world. A slow boat is the only way to do it.

Have friends/family and co-worker gottn mad at you yet for your choices? If not, they will. They place great if not unrealistic in conformity. Fight them!...:)...Allan

Allan S said...

that should read "comfort in conformity"...sorry

Anonymous said...

Sorry Allen doesnt know what he is talking about.
Im ur Mom and I am proud of whatever you do! Get Mad?? thats CRAZY!!!
I just ask you to Be Happy and stay safe!! I Love You!

Belinda Del Pesco said...

Great post... You've articulated with clear and colorful words what others might only ponder as flitting, unrealized dreams. After all the work and planning and stick-to-it-ness you've mastered with this project, you deserve every single second of that *integration* feeling. Bravo to you both.

Mid-Life Cruising! said...

Great post and some very wise words! We can only imagine that feeling of freedom that comes with the point you're at in life ... congrats!

Controlled Jibe said...

Wonderfully post written from your heart. Congrats and keep on following your dreams!

Anonymous said...

I dont know what to say. This blog is fantastic. Thats not really a really huge statement, but its all I could come up with after reading this. You know so much about this subject. So much so that you made me want to learn more about it. Your blog is my stepping stone, my friend. Thanks for the heads up on this subject.

Travis and Maggie said...

@Allen- do you feel me or what!

@mom- thanks mom, its good to know you're supporting our decisions whatever they may be

@Belinda- thank you so much we really appreciate your kind words- really

@MLC- you'll be feeling the same freedom soon!

@CJibe- just found your blog, its great! Love the dog. We'll be following your progress to see how it all works.

Heather on Meerkat said...

After all the work you have put in to not one, but two beautiful boats, I am so happy you love the lifestyle! If it were me and I was your age, I'd take off. It doesn't have to be far or for long, but if you can get out of the slip and be at anchor, even for a little while... living at anchor is even better than living at dock! And you can always come back. I know, because we did - twice. Just enjoy whatever you do - you earned it!

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